. { b e a u i n s a n i t y } . {w e l c o m e h o m e } .

"My god, Halo! Feder really is an angel!"

"Yes, but not a sane one. Like this he has no sense of reality nor does he have the abilty to decipher friend from foe."

"You mean he's going to kill us all!?"

"No, you leave this place. You and the others hide yourself in the temple, the symbol has already been painted on the door."

"But Halo, what about you?"

"I'll stay..of course."

"But you'll..."

"I know, but it's alright. If I leave, Feder will die alone. It's been too much already, I will die with him."

"Halo, if he were sane, he would implore you not to do this."

"I know, but he's not. He no longer recognizes me as anything. Its for my sanity that I do this. Please, save yourselves before Feder kills them all. Don't worry, Feder. I promised your father long ago that I would never leave you without purpose. I keep that promise even now, only this time, its for myself."

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Little exerpt from a story of mine. Halo speaking to another Forbidden elf right after Feder's angelic power (that sounds super corny -____-") is unleashed and right before Feder uses his ultimate power to blow away the invasion of Dark elves.(The rest of society is hiding away in houses with marked doors, kind of like the Moses thing with the "death of the firstborn son") Isn't it amazing though, what one person would give up for another. I'm sure that if Feder was actually concious of what was happening he would force Halo to safety but dearest Halo takes advantage of Feder's temporary angelic unconciousness and decides to die with him. I won't give away the ending, that would ruin it all for people who actually read my stories but those two amaze me. I wish I could find a man like Halo. Feder is so lucky.

Something strange has been happening to me lately. I'm finding out that almost everyone I know is becoming (or already is..) a sex fiend. It just seems so unnatural. Am I the only one who thinks that sexual intercourse is a private intimate thing that shouldbe shared between two people who have truly loved each other for a long time and are completely ready for such an act? Am I the only one who believes this? Everyone I know is either manipulated into having sex with someone who isn't mentally mature enough for it, or someone who thinks that sex is just a raunchy act that you do when you feel the urge. A mindless act that involves no romance just dirt. I can't stand that. For some reason it bothers me so much and I feel like I'm the only virgin left alive. But I'm proud of that. I am proud that I haven't been sucked into the stream of society, selling off sex like some lottery prize. I have my dignity and I will not be tainted by someone who doesn't deserve that gift from me. I wish others would be stronger but as I get older, one by one they go down, and I am left here alone, praised only by God for being the only virgin left.

I am sorry if I offended anyone with that but it seems true. Please don't get mad at me for it. I still love you all dearly, never forget that.

<3 Kaori

[p.s: I deleted all of the entries that really had no feeling or said anything of value so if my archives page looks a little smaller, don't worry. You're eyes are still working properly.]

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