. { b e a u i n s a n i t y } . {w e l c o m e h o m e } .

My genuine German.

After many months of anticipation tomorrow is finally coming. Laura is finally coming back tomorrow! I am so excited. When she left, after staying with me for so long, it felt like half of me died. I never had a sister before so Laura was the closest thing to a real sister I ever had [minus the fighting, we never did that. :3]. I don't know if many of you are close with your sisters, if you even have a sister but Laura and I were insperable. We did everything together. Letting her go at the airport that night was probably one of the most difficult things I ever had to do. I still remember it very clearly. We walked into the airport both of us holding hands so tightly together that our knucles were white. We let my parents do all the flight adjusting while we sat on a "curb" next to a railing waiting for the moment that we hoped wouldn't have to happen. I remember that we went into a a little cafe of some sort and we both got soemthing to eat, probably hoping that it would fill that sick emptiness inside our stomachs but neither of us could really eat much. I began to cry first. We were sitting at a table waiting for the time when we had to let her go through customs by herself. We were watching this computer monitor about what to do through the security check and making fun of how corny it was. We tried so hard to lighten the mood but I couldn't stop from crying. Time came closer and we just kept hugging each other reminding each other, or more like reminding ourselves, that we would see each other again soon. After about 15 minutes of solid embracing we had to let her go. I cried and cried and watched her cry too. She was my sister. My one and only and it was so hard to let her go. I was so used to her being around everyday. Doing everything with her. Now things were going to change and I would be back to doing everything alone again. We watched her go through the security check and waved to her through the glass door and that was it. Right there, in the middle of the airport terminal I fell to the floor in hysterics. I was crying so hard, so hard I couldnt breathe but I didn't care. I need to cry, I needed to scream and cry. My parents held me for a while telling me that everything would be okay, and I knew it would but right then, it was the worst moment of my life. For days after that I sulked in this mini depression that seemed to last forever. I missed her so much and being without her was like being dead.

As time went on, I gradually got better. Laura and I began to make plans for this summer and now they're finally coming into play. She is coming tomorrow and I can't even put into words how happy I am. My sister is coming back! Only this time, when she leaves, I go with her. Though now I must admit leaving her is going to be harder because not only will I be leaving her but I will be leaving her wonderful family which I know will become like my family and all of the wonderful people of Germany. I am so excited to go though. This is the trip I have been waiting for.

Well, onto a change of subject, I haven't been updating this week because I've just been so busy. Cloud's mum had to watch his cousin this week so she decided to make it a fun week. On Monday we went searching for Krispy Kreme doughnuts somewhere in Rhode Island [the closest one to us XP] and it was definately worth it. I had the best doughnut ever known to man, plus I got a free hat. Now that rocks. After that we went mini golfing which was also pretty fun even though I stunk horribly. Tuesday we went to the Roger Williams Zoo which was also really fun. I love the Zoo. I really wanted to see the wolves but they were hiding in their dens almost the entire day. I don't really blame them though, it was quite hot out. So instead I bought three wolf plushies from the gift shop [with insisted help from Cloud and his mum] so that made my day. Wednesday we went to the beach and waterslides which were also really fun. Don't really need to explain the beach, a beach is a beach. Today, we went bowling. The first time I ever went bowling with real bowling balls. I stunk terribly at first but I got better and better as the game went on. Yes, I lost both times but against three winwinwin guys, I half expected that before I started. After bowling we went to Pizzaria Uno for this really funky peanut butter cup dessert. It was really yummy even though I didn't even come close to eating it all. Then, we went lazer tagging at this really large lazer tag place. I had a lot of fun actually. What was really funny though was that the whole time I was in there, I was in this competetive daze so I hardly remember any of the conversation that went on. Our team won both games but our competition was tough. Even though the team we were against found many ways of cheating they were still tough. Especially for me, defending the two bases all by my self because the men on my team of course, had to be the offense. But it was incredibly fun and I am dying to go again. Next time we have to take Laura. I think she would enjoy it.

Thats bascially it for now. I wanted to write another exerpt in here but this entry is already too long. So I guess I'll have to make my exerpt stand alone. Watch out.

<3 Kaori

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